No more thumbs

So we are in Whistler.

We impromptu decided to curb Audrey's thumb sucking. 

She only sucks her thumb when she is tired. It's quite sweet and endearing.

We bought this nasty nailpolish for stopping kids from biting nails. Oh man she is heart broken every single time she tries to suck her thumb. 

She isn't able to soothe herself to sleep, isn't able to soothe herself back to sleep when she's stirred from sleep. She mostly is just horrified every single time she sticks her thumb in her mouth.

It's heartbreaking.

She's 3.

It's time right?

4 year old thumb sucker is to old right?

Oh mercy, I wish there was something I could give her that would help her soothe herself in those moments that all she wants is her thumb.

We both feel like the meanest parents. 

Don't drink it

She might smile at you nice.

She might use her manners

Don't be fooled. If she's quiet be prepared.

Today I saw her playing so nice in her kitchen (her play kitchen). I asked her what she was doing. 'Just playing' she replied. My heart melted. A couple minutes passed. I asked if I could play. 'Alright!' She exclaimed excitedly. She handed em some tea. (Pretend). Much to my surprise it had some liquid in it. I asked her what it was. 'Just spit tea mommy...it's good.' The giggles welled up and couldn't be contained. Failed parenting moment. She's going to do it again I can just sense it lol shouldn't have laughed. The thing was not that she did it...but the quantity of liquid. The time it must have taken. Oh mercy. I am laying in bed writing this and trying not to giggle because Brent is asleep. 

Audrey is me. I was like this as a child. She honestly is the funniest mixture of mischievous with the heart that wants to please. So she does something and really has no NO no idea that its 'wrong, bad, gross or naughty' she almost NEVER does the same thing twice that is a 'no no' but she is creative so there is usually something up her sleeves. She is SO remorseful and gives the most heartbreaking 'sorrys' so needless to says she might get in trouble but usually I am the one that walks away feeling like a 'jerk' because I know in her big beautiful heart she was just trying to live life with zest and explore its full potential. 

Oh Audrey. You make me feel again the way I used to-no inhibitions. You are 3 and I get you, I got your back baby girl even if I gotta give you trouble so you can be a successful adult one day. I hope your zest for life is never bogged down by the 'Debbie downers' of the world. I understand how you just want to experience everything and see the world as a place full of opportunities to make people laugh, light up the room with your smile and dance moves and most of all to explore and live life to the fullest.

Audrey I love you, I am so proud of the girl you are becoming. I hope you know how everytime I punish you I had to go in my room and laugh. One day I hope you read this and know that I would never wish for you to be a boring child. You light up my life and my days. I hope that you get blessed enough to have a little 'Audrey' that tries to serve you some 'spit tea' and keeps you on your toes in the most wonderful way.

Heartbreaker

Tell me wrong. Tell me those dark eyes wouldn't melt your heart. He's my lil heartbreaker. He's going to melt girls hearts one day. One day he will find a girl that he will fall madly in love with...until then ill be happy to be the only love in his life. He doesn't know it but I'm training him to be a good husband before he's even two. Gotta keep up the Converse tradition. Flowers, snuggles, romance and maybe some jewellery here and there. He's going to be a great Prince Charming.

**picture below is him bringing me some flower bouquets** the picture that isnt shown is of me and my heart melting**

Bachlorette

Ok,

I'm not the hugest bachlor/bachlorette fan but I do enjoy it here and there. I saw someone post there top 5 that they thought would 'win' I figured 'what the hay' and I would do the same! Feel free to post your predictions!

Firstly in usually wrong haha and usually most the guys are 'whack jobs' and so who knows. Maybe half way through ill post again who I think is going to win.

Oh the things we do to keep our nights interesting when we are stuck home in the evenings after having kids. 

Here we go...my bachlorette predictions!!

Spring memories of you

I get these moments.

They are usually in spring time.

Daffodils, they used to always brighten up your windowsill, now I use them to brighten up mine with memories of you.

When roses start to fill the air with delightful smells. I remembered how much you adored the soft pink ones. 

When the dogwood trees start to bloom you would tell me how they where always your favorite tree.

You held my hand, you taught me how to be a lady, you embraced me for me and encouraged my quirks. 

I miss you so much during these seasons especially when I look at my sweet Audrey&Beckham. I wish you could have known them, wish you could have held them. I will plant roses, daffodils and dogwoods wherever we live, I will tell my sweet babes stories of me and my grandma. 

It feels like it was just yesterday since our last goodbye, but how my memory has faded such simple things like the memory of your smell and color of your eyes. Although more and more when I look at Audrey, I see a lot of you in her eyes. Good thing I know the brand of your favorite perfume, so everytime I'm shopping all it takes is one spray for the memory of your presence to linger for the rest of the day. 

I pray I can be the woman you where. So strong and loving and sincere. Such a Godly woman. You left me impacted in so many ways. It will be the most delightful day to have your hug again. I'm so blessed to know ill see you again in heaven one day. 

7:55

55mins past bedtime

Reason #98 for getting out of bed.

'I have to go poop because I'm farting'

Bah, Friday nights never got classier.

Big Ouchy

Audrey came running into my room this morning. She shouted.'Mommy, Christopher Robin have me a big ouchy on my foot!!' I'm pretty sure she was having some wild Winnie the Pooh dreams last night.