This year my little sister is graduating...
Wow. We are six years apart and I thought this day would never come. I thought so many things and thought life would look a certain way when I was in highschool. I guess these are my reflections and comparison looking back from my highschool frame of mind...
What I thought in highschool;
I thought every successful person got a degree
I thought every person owned a house before they got married
I thought six figures was not very much
I thought you were supposed to date over three years before you got married
I thought every person marries their soul mate
I thought that everybody saves their money
I thought that when you had a baby you could lose the weight in two weeks
I was very confused about male anatomy
I was very confused about lots of biology related things... ha ha
I thought every Christian had a personal relationship with Jesus
Let's just start with this. I am Sheena. I am a special education assistant. I work with kids with different disabilities (physical, cognitive, learning). I am also a therapeutic tutor trained in the Orton Gillingham approach to multisensory learning.I do not have a degree. I love my job. I am currently on maternity leave this year. I am a mom and that is my favorite job. I love being the one to raise my daughter. I am going to go back to work (at least until whenever we get around to #2). I feel really guilty about it but it is truly what is best for our family at this time.
Brent was shocked when we were dating when we talked about marriage and I told him that we couldn't get married until he sold the house he owned with a couple guys and bought out own ha ha. When I mean house I don't mean condo or townhouse. I was firm in my belief that married people own real houses. This coming from a eighteen year old in highschool was laughable...me and my hostess at ABC restaurant job. We landed up renting for a little bit before we bought our place but don't worry I learned real fast about 'real life' we did the book '10 dates before you say I do'. More for me then anything it opened my eyes. We discussed finances, sex, in laws, spirituality, communication, conflict etc. It was SO great. I learned in one of those discussions about finances...that minimum wage wasn't 100,000 a year ha ha. Oh man...was it just me or are most private school kids this way? So bad. So bad bad bad.
Brent and I got engaged after eight months of dating. Brent told me he loved me after three months. Brent told me he wanted to marry me after two months. We had a whirlwind courtship that was filled with passion and enlightenment. When I say that Brent and I grew up together I mean it. Between 17-23 you grow and change SO much. He is the reason I am the woman I am. He is the man I dreamed about and prayed for. He is my hero. He has laughed with me and supported me threw everything. Brent and I knew really fast that we were meant to be. Everything fell into place in such a God way. I know that God made Brent for me and made me for Brent. He doesn't complete me, because that is God's job but he makes this life that God gave me beautiful and full of adventure.
Over the last six year we have gone on average from 3-7 weddings every single summer. We have a budget for wedding gifts in our budget...that is how we roll. It's intense. We are so proud to attend the weddings and share in some of the most beautiful moments in these couples lives. When we go we commit to pray for them and be a support to them in any way we can. Sadly we have seen many marriages crumble and fall as well as go through really ruff times (just as many marriages do{go threw ruff times, not crumble}). It breaks our heart it really does. I honestly thought that divorce was stupid and only happened to my silly family. I never understood how devastatingly 'normal' it has become. I am firmly anti-divorce. I believe that God can heal anything. Sadly in many relationships divorce becomes somewhat of a reality. I pray that no more of my friends and loved ones will face this harsh 'reality'.
Um, next one. Lose baby weight in two weeks. Bah. Shaking fist at girls who do. Boo. Audrey is five months old. Granted I have no tried very hard lately. I still am not the woman I used to be. One day. One day.
Anatomy and biology confusion...we'll keep this 'G' rated. After all if Audrey were to read this one day I wouldn't want her to know how confused and naive I really truly was. Let's just say that you can ask me if you want to hear some funny stories and if not 'no comment' ha ha
After highschool I saw many of my friends do things I did not believe that christians should participate in. I realized that the things we vowed we wouldn't do in highschool no longer stayed relevant to most any longer. I refer to this stage of life as the '20 something stage'. I can not really relate because I was a 'stage jumper' but this stage broke me in so many ways. I was so sad for my friends who lost themselves when they thought they were finding themselves. I was devastated even more when we lost contact with their biggest fan, their Savior. I was hurt by many when I would try and keep them accountable. This was thought to be judgmental and critical because I could never understand because I was married. I have a love hate relationship with the thought of a '30 something stage' I think how beautiful it would be to not have deal with the '20 something stage' then I realized that this stage is not specific to a certain age group rather it is more specific with a certain lifestyle.
I thought my friends would be my friends for life. Look around. Are the girls that you traded notes with in highschool the ones you still call your BFF? Man, reflecting back it's astonishing how few stay your friends. I was lost in a haze in highschool. I thought my peers were my BFF's and that all that mattered was them, their opinions and what we did that friday night. How wrong how truly wrong I was. I have less then a handful that I still see and I would not call any of them my BFF's. My husband is my BFF and my God is my go to friend. I wouldn't change it any way now...however I still have flashes were my inner highschool girl wishes I had a absolute best friend. ha ha. So silly I know. Then I smack myself and remind myself that I do just not in the highschool type of way.
Anyways this will have to be cut short because my darling has woken up from her nap and needs to be fed. Oh man. So good to be out of highschool and done with that stage of life. Cheers-can't wait to reflect and laugh at myself again in another six years when I've learned so much more.
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