So far so good

19 months old and potty training?

Audrey has been 'wanting' to be potty trained for awhile...so here goes nothing we are going to 'try'!

The eve of Christmas day!

What a beautiful Christmas season
With Beckham sleeping through the night I can honestly feel like it has been restful. Brent and I have been able to sleep into 9am regularly and that is a pretty beautiful gift!

Brent spoiled and that was unexpected. We usually don't do gifts as we just invest in spending time together. He showed me how much he loved me for sure. Let's just say jewelry is a quick way into my heart.

We are so blessed with so much family not only to love us but to love our children and it is a very big season that reminds you of that love. It also reminds you of family drama ha ha but what is a holiday without a little spice right?

It is all because of Him that we have reason to be thankful. I feel blessed.

One great man
Two healthy, SLEEPING babes
Huggeee amounts of family
Food
Shelter
And dreams that come true regularly

Houdini

This is how I find little man everyday. He's been scooting around and not only gets out of his blankets but is at least 1.5-2ft farther ahead in his bed then when I left him. He is turning into a little Audrey (Audrey crawled at 4 months and was walking at the end of her 7th month). This baby stage is going fast. It makes me feel like I should do better at taking pictures. It also makes me excited because the more giggles, cooing and talking he does the more I enjoy the stages. It like I'm just getting to know my little man e is pretty stellar. Considering Audrey is 100% a daddy's girl I'm hoping and praying for a mommy's boy ;) im not overly concerned because come preteen years she'll come back to me when it comes to cloths and all things girly. Although I'm pretty sure I'll be one heck of a soccer mom and any other sport! Go team go!

Ouchie?

Today Audrey was on the ground crying saying ouchie.

I asked, 'were is your ouchie?'

She put her foot in my hand and said ouchie.

I inspected it.

No scratch, no bruise...nothing

I thought maybe she hurt it or was having a foot spasm (I get those all the time)

I proceeded to help her stretch it. Then she put her foot in my hand again...
'ouchie' she said.

I started to give her foot a rub.
Crying stopped.
Saying ouchie stopped.

I stop giving her foot a rub..
'...ouchie...ouchie...'

Ok well maybe she is having a foot spasm and needs a rub to stretch it out...

I rub her foot and a few minutes later she said....
...'ouchie...'
And put her other foot in my hand.

I think I just got suckered into a foot rub haha. Just like her mom...but how did she learn it ?

She suckered me into a really long one to...sneak!

Sewing adventure

Being a mom of two under a year and a half old means I am home more. Means I am craving silence for the first time in my life.

I have begun to sew...
It is time were I can be quiet, creative and enjoy some time by myself whole still at home! Here is my first project!

I made Audrey a apron for in her play kitchen (excuse her mad face, she's my impressed with me interrupting playtime for a picture)

Explosion

How does he do it.
I'm blogging about it because I'm baffled. And because I want to remember so I can look back and laugh..when it's funny.

I fed him at 6:30am these pictures are from 8:30. He had a clean diaper at 6:30. Is this a boy thing?

So gross. Haha. Why am I laughing? It doesn't feel funny. When this happens I look at him and cry a little and say, 'why don't you do this when daddy is home '

Pictures

Getting pictures of your kids done is
A workout in...
Patience
Endurance
Strength
Humility

He knew

God knew what he was doing when he made husbands.
Love mine.
So glad he made Brent for me <3

Hugs

Hugs have never been quite so dangerous

Christmas schedule

18-converse extended family gathering
23-pre Christmas date night! &the night Brent and I open each others gifts
24-Christmas with the converse family
25-morning with our babies and Christmas with the Weetman family
26- Christmas with the converse family round 2
27- the day of rest
28- christmas with the Roy family
29-post christmas pass out from exhaustion date night

So proud

Brent went shopping
He used some of my coupons
So proud
<3
The way to this girls heart is coupons!

Marriage

Things I've learned.
When Brent gets stressed he cleans.
When I get stressed I nap.
Sometimes when the house is a mess and I'm much to tired to conquer it...
It make more sense to bicker a little.
Then when you make up...
You have a clean house and feel rested. Is that a win win? Probably just a win win for me ....Shhh don't tell Brent the secret.

Mommy moment

While driving Beckham was quiet (aka. No screaming ). I pulled over because I thought he might be dead or not ok. He was sleeping. First time ever (you know your kids hate the car when you pull over if no one is screaming and freaking out). Ha ha life of a mom!

Quote from today

While talking to the customs border guard...

Guard- what are you doing across the border today
Me- just groceries, gas and picking up mail
Guard-all by yourselves with two kids. (he said it with pity in his voice )
Me-yup
Guard-you're not working today?
Me-nope I'm just a mom
Guard-(gets stern look on his face ) don't ever say you are just a mom. You work harder then anyone even me.
Me-ya...it's busy (I say frazzled)
Guard-have a good day
Me-merry Christmas! ( I'm trying to say merry Christmas to everyone I see even if the situation is awkward like this one)

He was sooo sweet and it was great hearing someone appreciate the work of moms it was just shocking to have him get genuinely upset.

You Decide

Kiss or Attack?

Danger came

There are no words...
The poop came at night...I have never ever seen that much poop! His whole sleeper head to to and the sheets an under the sheets. Yuck, yuck and yuck!

Post baby tummy

Soooo, I got a reward chat app on my phone. It's for me. It's for me to lose the baby weight! Yuck I feel like such a cow so this is my incentive.

(I haven't bought any cloths since before Audrey besides necessities and well I am in dire need and only want to buy cloths when I am skinny again!)

The incentive:
Every hour I work out I get 1 star on my chart and every time I lose 5lbs I get five stars. Each star is the equivalent to $5. When I have lost 15lbs (my goal) then I get two nights shopping with whatever money I have earned on my chart.

Who says reward charts can't work for adults! Loveee it!

Impending danger

Beckham hasn't pooped since Wednesday it's Sunday night ....you know an explosion of unimaginable proportions is coming!

Our choice

we chose option A not because we decided that was best but it was our default for not actually making a decision. So lets see how it goes and hope that peace comes after....

iPhone 4s post

So when I got my iPhone 3 it was love right away. Now that I have the 4s I don't have as much time to fall in love...let's just say I am enjoying its company tonight, yeehaw!

This is my first blog on the new phone...hopefully many more to come!

My Sass

So I am working on biting my tongue but you know what lately with all the mayhem I just feel like I need to vent soooo VOILA!

These past 18months+9 months have been NUTTY. I have been SOOO sick, on IVs, on Ondansatron (what they give cancer patients for nausea) I have two children 16 months apart. I was in the hospital for almost three solid months each pregnancy and just a mess for the other six months. My husband has had four 2 month periods were he has worked 11-12 hour days and so I had almost no help. It has been A MESS. I can honestly say that I have never been so sick and never had so much stress. I am only sharing the stuff that is applicable to me because there is so much more stuff but it isn't mine to share. At the end of the day I feel more blessed today even after going through it all.

Anywayyyysss..
I have a few friends who whine and I just want to be that toddler that grabs them by the hair and shakes them. I can honestly say that through pregnancies, through being SO sick I have brought many people meals and tried to help out other people. Babysitting there kids etc. At the end of the day these people are still complaining and saying how no one has supported them. How they live in a community that isn't supportive. I just feel SICK to my stomach. I would NEVER have said that even in my darkest days when I was in the hospital especially to someone who has in there hardest time tried to help them out.

It isn't just one person, I would say it is our society more or less...trying to only think about what they get, what people can do for them, and how hard life is for them. I just feel so sick even talking about this (for real). I think the bibles verse...applies

Mathew 7:5
You hypocrite, first take the plank out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to remove the speck from your brother's eye

If you haven't done all you can to help your neighbors you should not complain about the lack of help you have received. There are lots of people that disapointed me in our time of need, would I tell them that? No way! How do I feel now that we are 'going up hill' I feel like God surrounded us with people that unexpectedly stepped up to the plate and BLEW us away. Even the smallest things meant THE WORLD. Count your blessings. Don't dwell on how bad you think you have it or you will always feel sorry for yourself instead look at all the things God has blessed you with.

Even if you think your friends, family and community have not lived up to your expectations I think it is important to turn it around...

ask yourself
1-what has God blessed us with
2-what are thinks that I can do to bless others (do unto others as you would have them do unto you {don't expect anything in return})
3-can I really complain, are there others that have it worse that I can help?

Just my perspective. I am guilty of self pity there are many days I just feel bad for myself. In those times I just hope I can catch myself and turn it around. I am so blessed and I need to give praise rather then focus on the negative.

So I guess instead of writting a blog about an annoyance I will turn it around

1- I have a beautiful Mother in law that has blessed Brent and I time and time again. She has gone above and beyond. She has blessed our children, Blessed us individually and blessed our marriage. She is a living example of the woman I hope to grow to be. What an incredible woman to have in my life!
2- We have a community that we know has prayed for us in the good times and the hard. It is so encouraging that we have found so many people that can help us just by lifting us up to the Lord
3-I have been blessed with my hubby, he is my Prince and has gotten me through so much in this life and knowing him is a blessing and a inspiration. He has helped me strive to be a better person.
4- We serve a God of grace....he has forgiven me time and time again. He has taught me so many things and always forgiven me and taken me back. I am not a perfect person and often lay down in bed at night and I hear a knock knock knock on my heart. He gently reminds me of all the things I need corrections for.
5- We have had friends that have been such a blessing and seriously taught us what it means to be people of God. They have inspired us to do more and be better and they probably would have NO idea what an impact they have made on our lives. They live out there faith in the small ways and the big. So incredible!


I'm sorry for venting, I hope you can laugh at my frustrations. I know its silly. I am not even sure why I was frustrated now that I am finished writting...to post or not to post. Ok I'll post ha ha ha. Love you all :)

finding solutions

Some Dialogue
When in doubt about your decisions

Sheena-'how about we just pick possible answers out of a hat'
Brent-'No Sheena'
Sheena- 'Can't this be one of those decisions you decide on and I just submit'
Brent-'No Sheena'

Sheena- 'Do you know what you think is best?'
Brent- 'I have no idea, what do you think is best'
Sheena-'I have no idea'
Brent-'How would you feel about (option A)?'
Sheena-'I'd cry'
Brent-'How would you feel about (option B)'
Sheena-'I'd cry'
Brent-Hmmm
Sheena-I'll just do (option A)
Brent-'I'll just do (option B)
Sheena-'This sucks'
Brent-Would you like a reward if you decide?
Sheena-Sure
Brent-'What would you like that reward to be?'
Sheena-'Not to have to make the decision'
Brent-'Lets just go to bed'

This is similar to how our conversation goes every single night.

Solution....We are winging it...yup...because being a grownup sucks and thats just what you have to do sometimes I guess.

let be and let god...sigh, why is that so hard!

So right now our computer is in the shop so that is why the blogging has stopped. Brent and I have been going back and forth trying to make a decision for our family. Are we finished having children. Yes, GASP, how could we ever think of having another when it is almost a death sentence for me. I am shaking my head as I write this. Man, so many tears. I wanted twelve children, you heard that TWELVE children when I was younger. Then life because more real and I thought five was a good number. Sigh, now two seems like the most realistic number.

If I didn't get so sick it wouldn't even be a thought we would probably be giggling already laughign at how rediculously close we wanted our third to be to our last two. (16 MONTHS APART, ITS PERFECTION!)

Sigh, sob, tears, oh man it is such a struggle. Is our family complete. Well I could certainly affor cuter kids cloths if two is all I get. It just is super hard because I feel like it is not my choice. It is the choice that was handed to me. I feel anxiety at the thought of another, I feel stress at the idea of being pregnant, I feel totally sick to my stomach thinking about missing out on nine months of my kids lives AGAIN.

This is our struggle. We are figuring it out. It is a very difficult season. We are simply praying for peace and that the Lord would let us know what is right for us and our family.

A little family of four...perhaps that is all we will ever be....
plus a dog
and two turtles
and any other pets we might accumulate along the way.

Sigh, I am not feeling the peace. If you remember me shoot up a prayer for us. It is just something we are trying to work through.